Saturday, November 29, 2008
past 2days keep going out.. spend alot of $$ sia... watched 2 movies on thu, went fish n co e other day.. n frens haf been keeping mi company most of e time... thx alot... but i'm still left alone at times of e day... n normally at tis pt of time, i'll start to hu si luan xiang again.. i can really forget all troubles when i'm out wif frens... fool ard wif them, dun wry abt a thing... after tat everything juz rush back into my mind...
felt as if a part of mi is gone.. n i'm trying to complete my life.. felt so empty at times.. like today for eg.. its e most boring sat... but i guess i'm gonna face tis kind of life in e coming wks as well.. cant expect frens to go out wif mi every wk.. i also haf my budget.. online also nth to do.. make u luan xiang gen duo.. slp also cant slp whole day.. life is boring can! guess i'm too dependent on him... so when he's nt ard, i'm so lost... wat else can i look forward to...
yst saw a v nice kitty car... its so sweet coz at e front of e car, they painted "XX & xx forever"... chao ji wu di swt... n e whole car is juz so cute... inside still sit 1 big kitty.. encouraging pple to commit crime by breaking e window n grab e kitty sia =x
was sms n was taught by 1 fren tat frens r juz a passing phrase of life... in a way e frenship i all along believed in had actually changed.. all along i tot things r well, nth changes.. seems like i'm e only1 feeling tat way... cant find a word to describe e feeling.. is it hurt? disappointment? or wat? i only koe i felt sad after hearing tat... i dun blame my fren though.. maybe its really diff perspective of life... i tend to be too nt matured? assuming tat things r beautiful, nice going etc.. fact is life is ugly... when can i reach e pt where everything tat happens i wun mind at all... watever happens, i'm still happy, living my life... when will i kai qiao...
got tis sentence from mayday's song
生存是规则，不是你的选择
how many of us truly happy wif our lives? i wonder...
8:14 AM
Thursday, November 27, 2008
initially dun plan to post anything related to 'bf'... but hai shi come le...
today marks e end... after mths of misery... loneliness... watever it is... it finally ended... been pondering abt e same topic for mths... no matter how many pple told mi i should juz end it, i still hold on to it... hoping it may turn out for e better... guess i should thx qad... wat happened gif mi a gd enough reason to end it once n for all... zai zhen mer bu she de, i still tink tis is better ba... for both of us i supposed... no pt clinging on to a rs when u koe e love isnt there anymore... it will be hard to end... but someday u still haf to face it... however i tink i need a long time to get over everything... everyday i go, i'm reminded of him... maybe it isn't a gd thing to go everywhere wif ur partner.. wherever u go, u cant shake off their shadow...
e usual places i go r also those i used to go wif him... i see strip polo tee jiu xiang dao ta... ultraman xiang dao ta... watch movie xiang dao ta... play game xiang dao ta... take bus xiang dao ta... in my hse neighbourhood xiang dao ta... how m i supposed to get over everything??? pple hu shi lian tend to go for vacation? if i can afford i definitely go le... qad would definitely say he's nt worth my tears... but i jiu hui cry ah... tink of e past yr... how we met... how we got tgt... wat we did on his bday... how things became like tis... m i e only 1 affected? doesnt wat happen between us affect him in anyway? maybe if he feels sad, i'll somewat feel more consoled at least he put in some love into tis r/s? tinking back i've done many stupid things for him... giving up frens, waiting for him for hrs, learning to make tiramisu for him... buy him stuff to surprise him...
simply a too gd example to prove my previous theory... nt u put in how much jiu can get back how much... i've given enough i supposed.. wat do i get in e end? thrown alone... till now i dun understand wat happen between us tat leads to tis... is it my fault? wat haf i nt done enough? rem all those wonderful things tat he did makes it feel worse... where's e xn tat'll travel all e way to my hse to gif mi throat swts juz coz my throat nt feeling well... where's e xn tat'll wake up early in e mrn n send mi swt sms to wish mi luk for my papers... wat brought abt e change in u? i should haf foresee tis day... but y didnt i prepare myself for tis heartbreak...
thx for all my frens hu r concern abt mi... i'll be alrite... given enough time... thx alot to qad for acc mi sms whole day... ll for acc mi watch 2movies, shop etc... shino for meeting us for movie though late le... ash,xl,jason,roch for ur concern...
but wat can i say or do except i should juz wake from tis whole thing n live my life happily again... prob is... how long do i need... suddenly xiang dao dk words... 7yrs also can juz disappear... jiu zhen de mei you tian chang di jiu de ma?
10:07 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
y do i feel sad when u read ur msg... after last wk, i really dunno wat i should believe in... nth seem to fit wat u're saying... things keep changing every now n den.. but i still tell myself there's no reason for u to lie n i should trust u.. den y do i feel sad? tink i'll just push everything till e pt where i cant push anymore den i'll find out wat exactly happen.. i koe it isn't gd.. but i juz dun wan spoil anything.. i'm juz such a po ma person...
sometimes felt like i'm being taken for granted.. doesn't any ju wai ren feel it? u like things ur way... u dun get it, u nt happy.. however u can treat pple e way pple is treating u.. tis is juz how fair e world is... forever revolving ard e word 'unfair'
ohya, to add on, doesnt it feel so nice to haf pple actually treating u as a fren when u dun expect them to feel so? dunno how to describe.. but somehow it juz feel nice.. as if u're being appreciated to be there n being frens.. n i'm so glad i m ur FREN =)
8:15 AM
Saturday, November 8, 2008
work is boring n irritating as usual.. early mrn can spoil ur mood juz by seeing idiot.. tats how 'powerful n influential' she is... more n more pple dun like her liao.. i wonder how long can u last like tat.. hopefully nt long, out u go! =x
happy stuff, fri nite went out wif a grp of frens.. seldom got chance to meet up like tat n i like e exp~ shall go out more often ya? haha.. went vivo to haf dinner n was surprised wif a slice of cake~ really nv expected it coz i tot its juz a simple meet up dinner.. n its from my fav cake shop of all, secret recipe~ haha.. i tink almost all koe i like tis shop bA? their cakes really nice de lor! ate n chat abt stuff.. quite long didnt catch up wif each other le.. after tat went marina.. nice scenery.. v romantic.. no wonder i keep kan dao couples haha.. so sweet.. after tat jiu went hm le.. enjoyed e day.. reach hm jiu 12+ le sia.. den bath n surf net awhile jiu slp le coz nxt day still need work =(
today went work, time is crawling de lor.. bored till can.. finally waited till 1pm! n off we go towards suntec~ ric is nice enough to fetch us from work.. say wat bday gal got priviledge.. i wonder izzit haf other motive leh =x anyway, reach le jiu go da bao some lunch den went in e rm.. jenny is late.. jason n roch too.. anyway starting nt much pple dian song.. after tat e list juz goes none stop.. haha.. i got alot new songs havent sing dao! shall go again..
was typing some msg in ash hp when they came in wif e cake.. was real surprised i tell u! i look at e cake den see like v nice coz v choc.. den was told its secret recipe!!! den make a wish again, for e 5th time.. same wish.. haha.. after tat is present collection time~ b4 e cake, jenny passed mi a small kitty plush.. n its yellow lor! den after tat jason passed a kitty balloon.. like pian kids tat kind =x but cute! haha.. den got my present from e whole grp, suspect its bed sheet coz jenny ask mi for e size b4 =p den got a v cute card from them.. put inside self made envelope n inside greendot coy envelope.. still tell mi i kana terminated lol.. how lame is tat? envelop dou shi kitty.. wif alot of patterns.. thx to jason for spending e time to draw all tat.. love it alot.. n e msg inside, all v nice.. 1st time see andy de so long also =p
after tat ash pass mi a self-made card.. he still make it pop out lor.. was really touched.. n he said he didnt go work for it n do till 2 or 3am? omg.. ting le also hen gan dong liao.. haha.. buddy is nt for nth =D n i tink he spend quite some time on e msg.. coz he actually wrote it opp n haf a trail.. v nice! den got roses from xl,ash n ric.. biang.. its e pink roses i said super nice e other day.. told xl tat my bf dun like gif rose.. end up they gif.. love u all! haha.. den got present from xl too.. kitty high lighter n kitty pendant.. also told her i saw it at e shop e other day.. u guys really surprised mi wif all e stuff! coz i had no idea i would be getting those things i juz mention casually.. love e pendant too! haha... near end of e k session, jenny pass mi another kitty light.. small n cute n useful.. i can on it every nite when i slp~ hehe... e things n effort they shown n given really touched mi.. my eyes actually start watering.. 1st time touched dao like tis lor.. but cannot throw face ma.. so of coz e tears flow back haha..
after k ric sent mi n ash to cine area~ v thx to him also.. had been driving us ard so often hehe.. thx driver =p met ash's fren ben.. 1st time so formal de intro though i saw him b4 from far.. really is nt bad looking leh.. but 2bad.. sat n waited for ll n shino wif all my stuff.. both late lor.. den ll wan eat ajisen.. haf to walk all e way to taka la! knew she wun help mi carry e big cake ard.. so she juz help to take e flowers.. haha.. cut a slice for both of them to eat during dinner.. ll keep say nice.. secret recipe nt lang de xu ming 1.. haha.. took e rest hm to let family try.. e whole cake thing is so heavy la.. lucky shino is gentlemen enough to offer to take.. though after some time =p but he carried it all e way after tat so thx alot! watched ll's long awaited saw 5.. still bloody as usual but i nv get nauseous *right spelling? n e show quite short.. ended so suddenly.. but i can understand e storyline! haha...
ll went to fren's bday at arena den mi n shino went off ourselves.. my bus came 1st.. haf to occupy 2seats for e cake too.. so ps can.. nt enough seats i still take up 2.. lucky e bus nt v crowded.. only abt 3 pple standing i supposed.. aha..
tml haf to settle assignment le.. marketing n my poa =| after a day of enjoying, need to suffer liao.. anyway really enjoyed e day alot~ thx everybody... muacks! =D
ohya, qad gave mi a kitty towel e other day, juz b4 her paper she passed it to mi.. thx alot too.. love u =p wahaha...
ps. sry if i'm too long winded.. i like to be v detailed so i can rem when i read my post in future haha..
9:57 AM
Monday, November 3, 2008
juz celebrated my 22nd bday few days ago~ OLD LIAO LA!!! haha.. ju said 25 onwards den old.. but to mi, once over 20 = old.. sadded~
vivo got tis kitty shop, v nice! muz go guan gu k~ nt sure if i'm able to post the pic.. shall do it nxt post ba~ haha.. spend my deepavali by going to e shop n the kitty fair at taka.. like tis jiu can walk till 9pm liao sia~ v pro ba wahaha...
anyway, last fri went bw hse for e nite~ met jl n ll at bl 1st.. both late.. suspected something de.. den saw them appear wif cake wahaha.. reach mrt den saw mr bean.. rem sum1 told mi e ice cream nice so bought it n try.. end up 1st bite i dislike it liao.. so ended up dou shi ll eat den i eat from the cone area onwards haha.. bw hse door is yellow de! v bright lor.. haha.. went in awhile jiu start to cut cake.. didnt koe bday person cant cut cake de? if yi si yi si muz cut n leave it hang there den let other pple cont cut all the way down? so weird sia.. nobody told mi abt tis b4 leh..
after cake cutting den jl went hm to do her assignment le.. bw sent her an sms wif my hp, no reply.. nxt day den i realise its her old no =x dun kill mi pls.. haha.. slack n watch tv while waiting for shino to arrive.. finally 11pm we start our mj~~ played through the nite.. abt 2rounds only.. the time pass slow lor.. or is it we play too fast.. haha.. halfway through dunno y rem wan get drunk den during break bw open his vodka.. mixed it wif green tea n drink.. still cant get rid of e er xin taste =x only drank few mouthful n i'm feeling so warm la! body temp is chao high lor.. n they said i'm v red =.= didn't koe i really so weak towards alcohol.. end up nv drunk also leh.. coz i still koe wat i playin haha..
played till 7am, went eat at the market nearby.. ate mee siam n drank coffee~ v long nv eat mee siam le.. ll bet wif bw n bw lost thus her bf is on him haha.. eat wan le mi,ll n shino jiu take bus back to bl while bw went hm... reach hm jiu slp le.. msg xl coz she ask mi to e day b4.. really is she start working time i juz reach hm sia haha.. slpt like pig till 12+ den saw afew msg coming in.. got impt msg so keep replying for 2hrs.. cant slp well.. after tat stop for abt an hr den cont again.. finally managed to drag myself out of bed ard 5pm? =x pig i koe.. but i'm juz so so so tired la! haha...
went out ard 8 to meet them for movie~ ll, her xiao didi fren n shino.. i'm late coz i dilly dally.. thus her fren waited for abt 20mins for us? haha.. shino zui chan la~ he's e 1st to reach ps.. went in late but lucky show havent start.. ll xiao didi fren bought the popcorn set n got tis free yellow cow n he gif mi as bday present~ haha.. so nice of him.. watched coffin.. ll n shino both complain v boring.. tat shino keep yawning beside mi la.. disturbing.. LOL~ some scenes quite stunning.. dou got bei xia dao.. overall ok ba..
after movie drag here n there dunno wan watch another show or go supper.. ended up at arcade for awhile.. e arcade renovate le! dunno since when de =x v spacious n nice now~ after tat went xin wang for supper.. xiao didi went hm 1st.. ate siew mai, xia jia0.. yuan yang n got free mango pudding if u produce the movie stud~ gd rite.. haha anyway e siew mai is v v nice! coz got big prawn inside.. yummy! start chatting abt some r/s stuff.. realized some pple de requirement really weird.. or should i say hard to find or wat? den they say my ideal r/s so ou xiang ju, nt gonna happen in rl.. tats sad sia~ i wan a constant r/s.. v hard to find meh... anyway hope they 2 find their mr/ms rite =) shino, dun wry, u wun be monk haha..
reach hm, shower le jiu slp liao.. by den its alr 4am.. slp till noon 4pm den wake wahaha~ v hard got chance slp like tis ok.. so muz treasure ahhaa... sun wake n start to do law assignment.. tough ok.. sianz... need submit on wed, still left tml to fin.. hopefully can pass ah =x
anyway today went work, after work got my present from nwp~ 2 wu gui soft toys.. haha.. i beginning to haf more wu guis liao~ took 1 hm coz office cfm no space.. anyway my bed also no space liao.. i wan a bigger bed!!! haf a quite long photo taking session wif colleagues n my wugui baby~ haha... e baby so loved by pple, keep kana kissed by pple.. now bring hm le, its safe from u pple =p anyway i like e present alot~ so thx all! =D
oh, to add on, i received a cake from my dear hu's overseas~ chao happy =D maybe like wat they say, i v easy contented.. juz simple thing can make mi v happy liao~ n i can forget all e past unhappiness haha.. i jiu shi so simple de leh.. so u juz haf to treat mi nice~ haha.. muacks~~ <333 i love surprises~~ =D
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