Be My Valentine Tonight.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

~ * ~ 9th post ~ * ~

s0 call reopening of my blog? hopefully i update it regularly.. haha..

recently busy wif exams.. e panda eyes is getting darker! slpin at 3,5am in e mrn.. shall change to normal slpin hrs after my exam.. haha.. today haf micro n pbf paper.. micro jialat le.. i submit e paper jiu zai tink if i should retake or change mod to study nxt yr liao =x haha.. pbf is quite easy.. but i dun tink i can score also.. passing shouldnt be a prob ba.. i haf alot of time to slowly write, stare into space, lookin at pple going off, write neatly and still come out early.. haha..

after tat went cwp to meet up wif nwpians.. near 2mths nv see them le~ haha.. they must haf miss mi so much =x jkjk~ today was to meet up for eli's last day.. so fast sia.. she bu de her coz she's really nice to hang out wif.. but den she got her dream job.. should be happy tat she's able to leave this stupid coy n e idiot ba.. so envious her.. haha.. dinner was ok.. erm.. i guess.. pple yi ge yi ge leave early.. mi n xl haven start eatin, e rest eat wan liao =.= did nt eat much also coz dunno y like not much appetite.. they bought a puffly jacket for her.. hmmm dunno how to describe but den its nice~ n she's so happy.. haha.. throughout dinner dou quite ok.. eat till abt 10 den make our move.. initially didnt feel anything.. den saw fitri n fiza hugging eli.. den they started cryin.. v easily influence de lor.. den eli came n hug us 1 by 1.. tears jiu come liao.. zhen de hui hen she bu de her.. almost a yr de xiang chu.. build le r/s.. now need part.. yi hou go back no eli to communicate e 'traffic way' method wif mi le.. sad.. anyway hope she really take care of herself..

when u're in a r/s, u encounter probs.. n hope u're single.. when u're single, u encounter probs.. hope u're attached coz lonely.. if not is wonder y nobody like u.. y cant find partner.. pple like u le, also fan.. hao hao de f/s jian jian de change.. change dao you le expectation.. will unhappy coz expectations nt met.. initially happily zai yi qi de feeling become another kind of feeling.. more disappointment.. more moodiness.. more pressure in ur communication.. cant things juz stay e way it used to be.. or remain as now instead of progressing.. will e unhappiness u obtained in a r/s worth the happiness u'll get? if it balances out, does it mean the r/s is worth a try? guess it depends on the risk type of the person ba.. risk neutral, risk adverse or risk lover.. for adverse, i tink only if they're able to obtain more happiness compared to unhappiness den they'll find it worthwhile.. for risk lover, as long as they're happy, it'll be worth it.. Lol~ micro comes into e pic =x all crap.. pls skip haha..

wat if it doesnt work out.. den u'll destroy e current f/s u haf.. is it worth e risk? wats ur utiliy expectation? y do we haf to consider so many factors n tink so much.. how simple kids can be.. like jiu like, dun like jiu dun like.. guess as u grow, u'll get more complicated..

tat day watch michelle's wedding on tv.. hao xing fu ah.. nth can replace a married couple's smiles on their wedding nite.. can simply feel how blissful they are.. zhu ni men en en ai ai~ watch le jiu wonder, will i haf such a day? haha.. it takes so much courage to gif tat nod n settle down wif ur partner for e rest of ur life.. how much trust u haf of tat person to be able to gif u happiness..

hmmm.. after 2 papers in a day, mentally n physically tired liao.. shall rest le.. nitez~

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